exclusive recluse

i like your face thats why i stare.

(Source: dink-182)

Such a weakness for pale people its unreal!

Francesca …… Watson </3

thats it, i no longer care what happens to me and in all likelihood my face may meet the floor underneath my window later on, i feel like shit all because the person i love and who i thought loved me walked out on me over a month ago now and i cant do anything but think about her, it genuinely ruins every second of the day because everything reminds me of her and now she has died her hair pink which just makes me want her back even more and it sucks because she hates me and wont even acknowledge i exist and it kills me, i dont know what to do, she was my life, she still is!and today she gave me back the present i got for her for christmas, a personalised charm bracelet with both our star signs on joined by a heart and she just chucked it back in my face. and may i add this made her so happy she cried when i gave it too her.

i dont know what to do its causing my life to be shit just because for once i actually love something (in this case someone) properly and thought things would work and everything would be perfect, i know we had our little fights but they were all resolved within seconds, she was perfect, she still is yeah she had some flaws but thats what made me love her she was perfect for me.

and well i know out of my two followers i doubt either of them will actually read this  but if they do and they do spread this shitty little rant i just want people to know even if i dont know you or you dont want to talk about anything i would always be there for you just because i know what things feel like and its shit it really is and all i want to do is for everything to fuck off but right now could be possibly one of the most important times in my life and everything is going wrong because of her yet i still love her to pieces and even writting this just makes me want to hug her and hold her and i know its creepy but i have pretty much stalked her for the last month and whatever just because i dont want her out of my life and i know it might be better without her but i dont want that i want her, i want my Francesca ……* Watson back in my life.

and do you know what hurts even more than all that? when she broke up with me she said she wanted to be friends, then she said not while i had feelings for her then she just said she hated me and never wanted to talk to me and now she just keeps flirting with people and it rips my fucking heart out every time i see her talking to somebody else, why does this heart so much? i just love her no matter what and i feel like such a pansy but i cant help how i feel and if i love her i love her and pretty much fuck all would change that….

this is me and her together around christmas.

*she hates her middle name hence the dots